Enatia

Am I a horrible person?

2010-04-28T06:49:00.000-07:00

There's this guy I met. He seems absolutely perfect, then again I just met him so I could just be holding him high at the moment. The problem is that I'm dating someone. I like this guy, but it just doesn't seem right. I want to continue to be friends with him, but I don't want to be in a relationship with him anymore. Help? Should I just wait this out to see where it might go? If not how do I break it off without him feeling hurt and us still being friends??

I need help. Comments please!!

Wolf Academies in Sheeps Clothing

2010-04-19T21:33:00.000-07:00

I'm a little disappointed at the place that I'm working at. I would really like to be able to teach troubled youth. For some reason I think I would really be able to excel in trying to get them to learn English as individuals instead of having to teach in a group setting. I started working at a troubled youth facility, which I will not say the name of the Academy, in hopes of gaining experience with these types of kids.

The kids are great! I love working with them, even though I don't see them as much as I would like to being on night staff. They're funny, smart, and a little edgy. For the most part they seem to accept being in a program to help them mainstream back into society. One of the boys opened up to me and let me know that his dream was to graduate and go to college to become a music producer. Others are starting to have dreams of college and careers once they get out of the program. I love it! I love trying to encourage them to be better and have a more positive outlook on life and the situation that they are in.

I'm a little shocked at the school itself. They continue to want the students to stay on "structure" when there is no structure in the staff. Most of the staff were thrown into their positions without being properly trained. No one seems to really know what they're doing, and when I ask different staff members about what I should be doing at certain times or situations I get so many different answers that I have to try and improvise.

There are a handful that have been given jobs outside of ordinary staff that just watch the students. These people are the most stuck up individuals I have ever met, and they're really not all that special! The councilor is one of the biggest douches I have ever met. He thinks he's God's gift to this facility and the psychology community. None of the kids trust him enough to open up, which I always thought necessary for a councilor, and many of the staff dislike his condescending attitude. I recently found out that he was fired from his last job from having porn on his computer....perfect guy to have as a troubled youth councilor...

There are two teachers here that teach the boys. Overall they seem like very nice women, when their noses are a little more even to the ground. They admitted to me that they do not have a license to teach, nor do they have a complete degree. One of them is studying to become an elementary teacher............huh. These boys range from 12-17 years old. Interesting choice of educators. I guess I didn't need to go to college after all.

The biggest disappointment of this facility is the facility and program. It is located in an old, beat down hospital that needs a lot of maintenance and cleaning. This does not seem like a place to help troubled boys, but is covered to look like it does. The staff get paid 7.25 an hour to work with the boys while the managers get paid 9.00. I'm sure the unlicensed teachers and prick councilor make a pretty penny, but I think I'm done ranting about them.

The program costs a freakish amount of money. To get the boys started into the program their parents have to put down an initial 2500 dollars. They pay for a USED uniform that is 500 dollars, many of these uniforms are stained and without buttons. Finally, every month they have to pay 3500 dollars for their child to attend this fantastic institution. Interesting. From what I hear they have a hard time keeping normal staff workers--I wonder why...

I've heard of other programs that cost about the same, if not a little more. The difference is their facility is cleaner, more organized, and they seem to really want to help these kids. Not this organization. It puts a mask on trying to help improve troubled teens to rejoin society, but the reality is that it is just another company interested in making as much money as it can while babysitting kids until they're 18 or until the parents can't afford it anymore.

I'm very disappointed. I still want to work with troubled youth, but this place has left a bad taste in my mouth. As much as I would like to quit, there are no jobs where I am at the moment. I'm hoping to make this just a summer thing and sub when school starts back up again until I can find a better job or earn enough money to move.

What do you guys think? Am I ridiculous about the school or is it supposed to be like this? Maybe it's just because I'm naive, but I always thought these places were for the kids and not just for earning money. I know that they have to make a profit to keep facilities like these going, but they have 28 boys and maybe 20 staff members, not including the councilor, teachers, and nurse (who is very full of herself too).

Maybe I'm just being stupid, but it's a little frustrating.

Thoughts

2010-04-18T23:13:00.000-07:00

It's interesting being me. I am trying so hard to enjoy the time I am having with the people and situation that I'm in, but I can't help but stress about things at the same time. I need a better paying job whether it is in teaching or something temporary until I get that teaching job. I tried St. George and, although I didn't stay long, I noticed with the jobs available I was battling with the college kids. That in itself made it extraordinarily difficult to find a job since I am now labeled as "over qualified" to work at certain places. Now being in Meadow I am having a hard time finding a job at all, but at least the population is low enough that I have a bit of a better chance finding something.

I know I need to move somewhere where I can either find a teaching job, get into a temp job while working with special ed, or find work to hold me over that pays more. I'm still thinking about moving to Reno, and now I am thinking about moving back to Vegas (which would blow). The only problem is I want to see where this relationship will go.

That is another part that I am having a hard time thinking about. I've been dating this guy for almost four months now and I'm having a hard time seeing where this could go and where I may, or may not, want it to go. He's a good guy overall and I want to give this relationship a chance. I don't know where he sees this going, and, honestly, neither do I. I'm so tired of putting myself out there just to either realize that the guy I'm dating isn't the one I want or having my heart ripped out. I know I'm still relatively young, but I don't want to date around anymore. I'm tired. I want to be able to start a family with someone. This makes me a little cautious as well. I don't know if I'm with the guy I am with now because I want to be with him, or if I've just decided I'm done looking. I know I can do better than him, and I'm not saying that he's not a good guy because he is. There are a few things that bother me about him, but I don't want to break up with him either. I want to see if this can become something more, but I don't know if he wants it to be or if I really want to be with him. If I move to a different city/state we'll probably break up. Then again, if I decide to stay it'll be for him, and I'm not sure that's such a good thing either.

I'm so tired of having to look around for work. I'm tired of not knowing what I want and where I need to go to find it. I'm tired of failing at relationships, and I'm terrified that I'm just staying in this one because I've given up. I don't know what to do and I don't know where to go. I know something needs to change, but I'm nervous and worried about the decisions I need to make.

While this is going on I'm trying to stay positive. I'm trying to get things taken care of so I can move and find something better. I want to enjoy what is going on and who I'm with, but those worries keep nagging in the back of my head. I used to be able to silence my worries pretty well, but the longer I try to silence what I'm worried about the louder my worries become.

I don't know what to do, and I'm so scared of making the wrong decisions and ruining my life. I just want a decent paying job, get my loans taken care of, and be able to start a family. These are simple requests, but they seem to be extraordinarily difficult to achieve.

I don't know what to do and I'm terrified about it.

I'm Sorry

2009-09-30T11:28:00.001-07:00

I know I haven't updated in a while, but I've been way busy. So, I'm thinking about moving again. I know I had decided to stay in Meadow for a couple of years, but lets face it...I'm going crazy!!! I like the town and most of the people, but I need a little more life around me. I'm considering on moving to Reno/Sparks to teach or somewhere in NV (NOT VEGAS!). They pay a little more for teachers and I'm better in cities. It's not decided yet or anything, just a big consideration.

Teaching is going pretty good. I'm having a lot of fun with most of my students and my mentor teacher is awesome! I'm learning a ton and feel like I've grown. I'm excited to get my own class and really have fun. :) I'm also thinking about working in a middle school for a while. I like the high school setting a lot, but since I'm still close to their age (kinda) many of the students are trying to be my friends (and a couple are trying to hit on me...stupid kids). One funny thing is I have a couple of students trying to hook me up with their relatives. heh.

I'm having my students write a short story. I really want to either send the best to a contest or take the best and create a small book or something with their work. The thing is I don't have that kind of money to make 50+ copies of multiple short stories to give or sell to their parents. Any thoughts or suggestions on this??

I'll try to update things more! Love you guys!!

SUCK IT HITCHCOCK!!!

2009-05-19T10:10:00.000-07:00

The movie "The Birds" became a reality for me this weekend. My mom and I went up to Meadow for me to bring some stuff up and get the yard fixed a bit. Before I go any further let me explain something, my house has a lot of holes that birds can get into. Also, we don't have a ceiling in our bathroom above the shower. I was standing next to the back door talking to my grandma when I hear my mom give a shout. As I looked up this full grown bird comes flying at full speed at my head. My poor grandma had to hear me scream into the phone as I run for cover. Thankfully that bird ended up getting out. About two hours later I had to go to the bathroom. I heard this noise inside the tub and, being the idiot that I am, opened the curtain to see what was there. Another freaking bird came bolting at my face! This one got stuck behind the microwave in our kitchen. I couldn't get it out at the time so I left it alone to get more things done. The next day I walk toward the bathroom with yet another bird bolting at me!! I thought I was going to die! This one got stuck behind some boxes in our bathroom. I had had enough of this. Two birds were in my house attacking me and getting stuck (My mom thinking this was the funniest thing she had ever witnessed). I decided that it was time for battle. I grabbed a helmet, construction goggles, and gloves to get these birds out of my house and away from my face. Needless to say both were flying around my house as I was running after them to either grab them and throw them out or coax them toward the door. I ended up grabbing both birds and throwing them out. This had to be the most exhausting and horrifying weekend of my life! Every time I heard any kind of bird call near me I was pretty much running for cover.

On another note, I think the Meadow community might be insane--or I am, but that isn't anything surprising. They have made me the CERT Commander (CERT is pretty much a rescue program just in case some kind of disaster occurs that cuts us off from the rest of civilization). Why they gave me this job, I don't know. The position that I am in is that if anything happens I have to put on a lot of protective equipment and direct people to go places for safety. They ended up giving me a map of the town, keys to various places of safety, and a diagram of the places that the town would need to go to for help. As they were explaining all of this to me my mind was not on what I would need to do to help whoever got hurt (if this ever happens, which it probably won't), my mind was on how I could use all of this information on my zombie book! I'm so pathetic. Needless to say the ideas they have given me are fantastic! I'm totally going to use the maps and stuff for my book. It was like Christmas every time they kept handing me stuff. :)

So last weekend was full of terror and happiness. We'll have to see what this one brings!

Birthday Party!!

2009-04-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

I think everyone should come to my birthday party on May 23rd! It would be better than having a going away part...or at least I think it would be. It'll be a Saturday at Pirate Island Pizza and kids are totally invited. They'll have fun over there. ;) It's still pretty far away, but it would be great if everyone could come! Let me know. :)

I'm Moving

2009-03-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

Well, it is official...I am going to be moving this summer to Meadow (if you don't know where that is it is five minutes from Filmore, and it's really really small so if you blink you will miss it). I am so excited about the opportunity to do my student teaching in Filmore, but I'm so nervous at the same time! I will be in my house all by myself in the middle of nowhere, or at least close to it. I don't really know anyone there except my 75 year old neighbor and some of the kids my sister hangs out with when my family visits in the summer. I don't have any friends up there and most of the people around the area are either married and old, married with a ton of kids, or the kids. I'll be lucky if I can find one person, who isn't a psycho, my age to hang out with. As for finding a relationship up there, that might be even harder...

Overall, it's a great opportunity to stay in that house for half of utilities only so I can get my loans off and I can really have a great experience student teaching in all high school grade areas. I'm hoping they will keep me on for a year so I can get the rest of my loans off and get more experience, so I can start on my second BA and my MA. The area is beautiful and I'll be able to have my own place to myself (although we still need to get the roof fixed, the bathroom still needs to get walls, and a porch needs to be there. It's really nice though!!)

I will be moving once school is over and will start living there officially in July. PLEASE COME AND VISIT ME IF YOU ARE TRAVELING!!!!! You have no idea how much you will make me happy even if you just stop by for five minutes. I'm going to miss everyone like crazy. The good thing is that I'm not too far away, so I can come and visit.

Anyway, that's what is happening so far. I'm thinking about having a small party before I leave just to hang out with my friends before this big move happens. Let me know if you want to come. Maybe we could all go to Pirate Island Pizza or something so your kids can have entertainment too. :)

What the Heck. I'm Bored

2009-03-05T10:53:00.000-08:00

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)

Woof Cavalier

2. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR'S NAME: ("The" + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”)
The Hiking Storm Tour

3. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Cookies and Cream White Chocolate Macadamia Nut

4. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name) E-art
5. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Sloth

6. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Arlene Vegas

7. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first) Art-El

8. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The" + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Blue Dew

9. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Victor Henry

10. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy) Sweet Pea Reeses Pieces

11. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names )
Arlene Henry

12. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Kelloge Kansas City

13. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Fall Tulip

14. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”) Nectarine Panty

15. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)

Cheese Willow

Everyone should do this tag! It's so funny!!

Is it bad??

2009-03-04T11:18:00.000-08:00

So, I'm here at work right now but I really don't want to do anything. I have to type up the meeting that happened yesterday and it's really boring. I keep drifting towards the internet because, let's face it, that is NEVER boring! I mean, I do get the work done, although I could get it done faster if I just did my job straight through and didn't screw around so much, but if I did that then they would give me something to do that is not on the computer and then the internet would be far away. Most days I'll go ahead and get my work done while drifting to my blogs, facebook, and manga (Japanese comics. They're really good! I'm reading Deathnote right now and it rocks!). It'll take me a while to get my stuff done that has been assigned to me, but I do get it done.

Am I a horrible person screwing around at work so much?? I only work three hours a day, so it's not too much, but it's so boring that the thought of chewing tin foil sounds like an exciting treat. What do you think?

P.S. Check out my zombie blog. I only have one follower and that makes me sad. I'm going to try to update it weekly if possible, but we all know how busy it is right now so I might not be able to do too much.

CRY

2009-03-02T15:16:00.000-08:00

I'm so freaking stressed out!!!! I want to try and keep up with the reading in all of my classes, but I can't since I have to have time to sleep, eat, and go to class. I want to try and keep up with all of my assignments, but I can't since I'm so busy reading. I want to make sure I'm understanding the lessons being taught and can use them in my classroom in the future, but I can't since I'm too busy trying to keep up with the reading and worrying about my homework. I want to study for the midterm for Saeby and test in grammar, but I'm trying to make sure I don't fail by not turning in my homework and doing my reading. I want to try and have some kind of life before I move away to a town where there's nobody my age who's single, but I can't because school is sucking all of the life out of me. I want to try to be positive, but I can't since all the positivity has been sucked out of me today through thinking about everything I want to do but can't.

Thank you for letting me complain.

Private Blog

2009-02-27T21:36:00.000-08:00

I just set my blog to private and I don't have everyone's email address to send it to. Please either text me your email or post it so I can give you an invite. Also, go check out my new zombie blog. I think I'm funny with it.

letstalkzombies.blogspot.com

I'm excited to see what you think of it!!

Zombie Blog

2009-02-27T20:29:00.001-08:00

Okay, the time has come for me to starting thinking about making my zombie blog. The thing is, will anyone actually read it??? I want feedback, suggestions, opinions, etc on what you think I should do and when my blog is actually created. I want it to be fun and informational, also I want to try and set a few people straight on things ;) Let me know what you think and if you would actually read it if I created this blog.

Hope everyone isn't going insane with all the homework we have to do!!! Call me if you want to do anything.

TAGGED!!

2009-02-26T13:25:00.000-08:00

Here is how it works.

First - post the rules on your blog,

Second - answer the six questions about yourself,

Third - let each person you tag know by leaving a comment on their blog.

So here goes.....

1. My eight favorite shows:

Maou
Hana Yori Dango
Hana Kimi
Damages
Law and Order SVU (CI sucks)
Family Guy
What I like About You
A Haunting

2. Eight things I did yesterday:

Woke up
Went to class
Did my homework
Read House of the Scorpions
Went to Joni's birthday party
Beat Joni and Katie in the ski game thing
Looked at Arashi stuff with my friends
Went to bed happy

3. Eight things I am looking forward to:

Graduation
Seeing if I will be moving this summer
Meeting my future husband
Teaching my own class
Going to Japan
Getting a degree in Japanese
Buying my own house
Writing my zombie book :)

4. My eight favorite restaurants

Mongolian BBQ
Durangos
Applebees
Chilies
IHOP
Panda Garden
Dixie Cafeteria
I don't go anywhere else...

5. Eight things on my wish list

Graduate soon
Go to Japan
Marry a Japanese Mormon man in the temple
Have really cute Japanese babies
Become financially stable
Live my life to the fullest
Buy a minicooper
Die happy and content

6. Eight people I tag:
Joni (you've done it though)
Jason and Elisha
Kathy
Catherine
Heidi
Mary Anne
Andrea

New post...finally

2009-02-17T14:22:00.000-08:00

I know, I know. I'm a slacker on a lot of things and my blog happens to be one of them. I've just been so busy and distracted with everything. School is fun and interesting and extremely exhausting. I love this semester since I've been learning how to arrange and manage my own classroom, but it has been so strenuous. I am not excited for the poster due tomorrow... I planned on working on it all weekend (and I did do a bit), but I got so caught up with so many other things that I wasn't able to do much. I hope it'll turn out well and that I'm able to get a decent grade. I really need an A with all of my classes.

Speaking of which, I am shocked that I still have an A in grammar. I just can't believe it...maybe I don't suck as much as I know I do. It's probably due mainly to Kathy. I don't think I would have gotten as good a grade on the test as I got without her help. It's funny, although this semester isn't the easiest one, it's still a lot of fun! I've got great friends trucking along with me and it lets me know that I am not alone in this little quest. They're also a lot of fun, to top it off. Okay, I'm getting a little mushy--time for that to stop.

Ugh, I'm hungry. I hate being at work when I'm hungry because I start googling food images on my computer and wish I could have what is pictured, but end up going home and just eating another sandwich (although by then I'm starving so that sandwich is dang good!). OOOO! I almost forgot! I have leftovers from Bajio yesterday when I went to eat with my mom! Sweet!!! Only an hour and a half left to go.

Sigh

2008-12-30T10:39:00.000-08:00

So, Christmas has come and gone way too fast. I had a good time with my family though!! We went sledding my first full day there, which I found out that hill (although very fun) also leave lots of bruises. Since I grew up without snow I continually forget how cold it is falling into it, and how annoying it is when it goes down my shirt. It was still a lot of fun. My mom kept feeding me the whole week. I think she might need to get her eyes checked since she kept telling me that I needed to eat more, so now I'm reaping the benefits of that and have gone back on my diet. Christmas day itself was really good. I got a ton of stuff I'm not sure what to do with or where to put it (I got an asparagus cooker, for heavens sake. I didn't even know they made those.) Overall it was a good time and I'm glad I'm back. I still can't believe that school is starting on Monday!! That's crazy!! I thought we had more time to mess around. Oh well. At least summer will be a bit longer.

Anyway, I can't leave this post without being a little nerdy, so here we go:

My roommate, girlfriends, and I have been obsessed with Japanese dramas. I'm not going to do a list of those, but I am going to do a list of the guys that we are now in love with. I would try to rank them, but I don't think I can. Pictures alone wouldn't do them justice, but I don't want to be one of those creepy blogs that gives you each of their history (Besides, I'm not creepy and that obsessed, so those of you who do need to seriously get a life). I'll just give you the name of shows that you should watch with them in it. Here we go.

Oguri Shun

This is the face of a hott Japanese man! Okay here are some great shows you should check out:
GTO, Gokusen, Hana Yori Dango, Hana Kimi, Binbo Danshi, and many more. These are the ones I have either seen or have hear about.

Ikuta Toma

Hana Kimi, Hana Yori Dango, Maou, Honey and Clover, Death Note.

Hiro Mizushima

Hana Kimi, Absolute Boyfriend, Love com, etc

Jun Matsumoto

Hana Yori Dango, Gokusen, Boku wa Imoto ni Koi o Suru, Kimi wa petto

There you go. These guys rock, and most of them sing which makes them even better. I know I'm crazy, but they're really cute. ;) What do you think??

Nerdy Part Two

2008-12-22T12:13:00.000-08:00

I noticed that many people have been posting about the end of school and the crazy weather that we have been having lately. Although these are very popular topics to talk about, I'm not going to. For one thing it's been touched on enough, and for another my mind is always occupied on other things. So here, to make you more nerdy (or to make you feel better about yourself that you are not as bad as I am) I am going to talk about anime for this post.

Anime: Japanese cartoons that take up a lot of my life. These shows are a lot of fun to watch and get in to, but are too high in price!! Seriously!! I can get tons of cartoons in America that are worth one show of anime. What is the difference you ask? Well, let me tell you... Anime has a lot better story-lines than a lot of the crap that we make (no offense, we're just not that creative). Also, it's okay for adults to say they watch anime. You'll never hear an adult say, "Oh I watch Fairly Oddparents every morning. That show is so much fun!!" No no. They will use the excuse, "well my kids (or siblings in my case...not like I would ever admit to this or anything) wanted to watch it, so I had to watch it with them". With anime though, it is understandable that adults would be watching this (it doesn't make you any less nerdy though, just a little more cool).

Anyway, here are five of my favorites that are not part of the ones I mentioned in my last post:

Blood+

I have to put in a bit of an action anime in here. This one is good, but kind of bloody (hence the name). It has to do with vampires, a girl with a lost memory, and her follower who is also in love with her. I haven't finished this anime, but it is one of my favorites. For those who are just starting out with anime, I wouldn't watch this first. Try Fruits Basket or a happier anime to get into the genre. This is good for those who want to start branching out more.

Full Metal Panic Fumuffo

This is a bit of a spin off of it's original show "Full Metal Panic". It's hilarious to see the awkwardness of boys and the way girls have to deal with it. Again, this should be watched after starting with something more up beat, but it made me giggle non-stop once I got into the show.

Witch Hunter Robin

Honestly, a lot of people that I have talked to found this anime to be really really boring. It might just be because it's me, but I find it kind of interesting. Many just don't really give it a shot. They watch the first few episodes and give up on anymore before the actual story starts going. It's another darker anime, but one that should be given a shot.

D.N. Angel

This one is not as dark as the last ones up put up. It's cute, funny, a little awkward, and just a fun anime. Go watch it, you'll enjoy it.

Yu Yu Hakusho

One of my old roommates got me hooked on this freaking show and, like Inuyasha, it goes on FOR..EV..ER!!! I still haven't finished it because I get a little bored after a while. Don't get me wrong, I still really really like it, but it takes a long time to get through. It's mainly a fighting anime with a bit of love twists in there and funny parts. I liked it, so you should give it a try.

Okay, here are some of my favorite animes. There are a lot more that I could put on (and some of my absolute favorites are on my previous post so check those out first). I hope I could make you a little more nerdy. Until next time!! ;)

A little Nerdy

2008-12-15T15:12:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I'm at work with nothing to do. I've decided to help make you a little nerdy with me, so here we go! This'll be fun!!

Lets start with Japanese stuff today...

Manga: Japanese Comics that can get you hooked on a story forever! Once you are done with one and you are sad that it's over, don't fret! There's at least 100 billion more out there to take up your life. Here are five of my favorites:

Hana Yori Dango

This Manga freaking rocks!!! I couldn't stop reading it once I got started, and I couldn't get my friends to stop when they started. I don't promote screwing around at work, but sometimes you just have to, so I read it there. It made me laugh out loud sometimes that I had to cover it over with accidentally choking on water, and it made me almost cry a couple of times that I had a strange cold and had to keep going to the bathroom to wash my face. It's a very cute love story with adventure and a lot of "awwww's". I highly recommend on reading this for one of your first mangas. It does take a little while to get into, but give it a chance. It'll be worth it. There's also an awesome live action Japanese TV show to go with it that makes life so much better.

Fruits Basket

This manga is just as good, if not better in some areas. I actually ran across this after watching the anime for it. Once the anime was finished I was like, "What the crap!? That's it?? No way! Now I have to find the manga and waste my time on it". Yeah, I still haven't finished. It's next on my list if I can ever finish the manga I'm reading now (that's next). It makes you laugh, it makes you cry, it makes you want to be a better person, and fall in love with some of the characters while questioning others. Trust me, it's worth it. I also have the anime for it which is very cute too! Read it!!!

Inuyasha

This manga takes FOREVER!!!! It's very good, very fun, and very repeditive!! I'm almost at the end of it, and it's taken a freakishly long time to finish. The characters are great to get to know, and many of the enemies are quite interesting. There's a love triangle going on and it's exhausting, and a pervert who falls in love with a woman warrior but has a hard time keeping his hands to himself from any girl. It is a lot of fun, but make sure you have a ton of time to waste. I'm not even sure if this manga has an ending. We'll have to see... There's also an anime to go with it, but because the manga took so freaking long they just decided to give up and not finish it.
Zettai Kareshi

This is pretty cute. It was just a fun and suprising read with a few twists and an ending that I was very happy with. It made me giggle on the inside, but nothing outloud. It's not very long, but it does make you feel pretty giddy after reading it.

Ayashi no Ceres

I'm actually suprised how much I enjoyed this manga. When I first started reading it I thought it was going to be pretty lame. It's not! It's actually pretty good!! You should read it! So, go do that now!! Right after you read the top three, the fourth can be skipped but it's still pretty cute.

So there you go. We'll be a little more nerdy next time. I usually find all of my manga on Onemanga.com or Bleachexile.com although I must insist that you look at all of the topics describing the manga that you are reading. I read a few that caught me by suprise (as in I saw naked drawn manga people. It's a little disturbing so make sure you look at the little content things on the side and if it says "mature" DON'T READ IT!!). Hope this helps you get started on being a little more nerdy!!

I'm happy

2008-12-14T00:14:00.000-08:00

You know, even though I complain a lot, I'm still pretty happy. I'm in a great school that is in a city with pretty good weather, I have great friends in and out of school, and I don't have any kind of disease or disability that impairs me to do anything. I also have been given a great family who cares for me and loves me very much, and spoils me rotten. ;) Everyone has had hard times in life, and I know I'm not any different, but not letting a lot of the hard times in my past get me down really helps. I look at everything I've went through that has hurt me as a learning experience as much as I can. So, although I do complain a lot, I am pretty happy and very blessed. Maybe it's because it's Christmas that I'm getting all sappy now, or maybe it's because my brain has been fried by this semester that I'm finally starting to lose it, but I'm so grateful to be given so many opportunities that I have been and I am so blessed to have such great friends in my life.

ARGH

2008-12-11T14:53:00.000-08:00

You know what I realized, a lot of my blog posts are me just plain venting and complaining. It's kind of making me seem like I'm an unhappy person. This may be because it's the final couple of weeks before school is done, or maybe because I am a person who complains all of the time. Well, this is not going to be any different. I am in my Portfolios class right now and I'm not a happy Beth. The "online portfolio" that we are doing is crap. It's just a web site!! I would use this to help with my actual classes, but not as a portfolio. There is something about this class that makes me want to cuss and punch a hole in the wall!! Not only that, but I think it's interesting how we keep having more things to do in Kauer's class. I like Kauer just fine, but right now I'm a little annoyed. It seems that every time she gives an assignment there is always more to it later that she didn't tell us at the beginning. Thankfully Pilkington's class is easy, but I actually have to do the freaking projects, so I kind of brought that one on myself. All I want to do is get a vat of ice cream, get onto my couch, and grab me a hot Japanese man to do my will and make me feel pretty... *Sigh* Speaking of guys... There's this one guy that I have been talking to everyone about that I just don't get. I think he is in love with the idea of getting married and having me be his wife or something. We don't even know each other and he has told me that he loves me over text!! What the heck! I don't even see this guy very well and he doens't know me and he's saying this! My first thought was to run away and never look back, but my roommate calmed me down and told me to give him a bit of a chance. That's what I'm going to do. I have no desire to marry this guy (or any guy at the moment) until I know him for a long time. I kind of want him to come and visit so we can get to know each other, but right now my thought of him is that of a stalker since he's being so obessed on telling me how he loves me and how he will make me happy for life when we only have talked a few times. It's weird!! Do you agree or am I being weird and looking at things too much? What are your thoughts? Ideas? Suggestions on what I should/should not do? Okay, I'm tired of venting (and I think the teacher has figured out that I'm not working anymore so he's heading on over).

I Suck at Working

2008-12-10T14:27:00.000-08:00

So I am a horrible employee. I didn't use to be, but for some reason I am now. It may be because school has sucked all of the life and energy out of me, but I'm just going to blame it on me being lazy now. When I worked at the theater I was so focused on my work. Everything had to be precise and perfect. The employees would in their top form and it would be a lot of fun at the same time. Unfortunately it took over a lot of my schooling, so I had to let it go (and it kinda made me into someone I didn't like, so that had to go too). I love my job now though. My bosses are so nice and caring and let me do what I need to for school and come in when I have the time to get things done. The bad thing about me is that when I'm here I don't want to do anything... I told you I'm a horrible employee. It's not like I actually have that much anyway. I run errands when they need, which I never complain about since I get a little stir crazy if I'm in one area for too long. Other things that are required of me is transcribing, which is great because I get to hear all of the gossip even though it can be a little boring after a while, and filing or whatever else they need me to do. The thing is, I don't want to do it. I want to sit here and play on anything else that is not homework or work in general. Of course I'll get my stuff done, but I get it done much later than what I could do. Maybe I'm just getting a little spoiled or something since my job is so much easier. Or maybe I'm just so burnt out by this semester that all I want to do is anything but what I should be doing. Oh, I do want to get people's suggestions though: I'm only taking 15 credits this semester. I was thinking about just having an easier semester and take grammar in the summer, but it might be nice to get it out of the way now (although I'm going to need a lot of help since I'm pretty dumb when it comes to some parts of grammar). What do you think? Should I take it next semester or should I just do it in the summer??

Stupid Freaking Paper

2008-12-09T06:03:00.000-08:00

I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO WRITE!!! This is not a good thing too, which is sad... I have to do my last research paper for Wrede and I'm up to almost four pages and I have nothing else to really say. I'm trying to focus on certain quotes, which do help, but the problem is that I don't believe half the crap that I'm writing. I think that she'll kind of like it, but I don't really. Oh well. I should just keep typing and hopefully some more BS will spew from my fingers. I just need a page and a half. That's all. I'm so close of being done with most of my main projects, but I can't get passed a stupid 5-pager! ARGH!! So frustrating... And I think my pillow ended up beating up my neck because now it hurts. :( Geeze, I'm a grouch today. That's no good at all. I think I'm going to go fix that and open todays present.

so...

2008-12-07T22:33:00.000-08:00

I'm still trying to figure out this whole blogging thing. i just don't think that many people will read this. Then again, I could just put this on for my own enjoyment. I guess that works. So, there is this boy that I kinda like but don't know if I really do. I'm a very confusing person. He's really sweet and nice, but I don't know if he's interested in me for me or he just wants to be with someone. We don't know each other very well and I try to talk with him (although this is usually over texting since he lives in Cedar) but he usually just avoids anything semi serious and tries to be all cute again. Oh well. I'll probably see him within the next few weeks when he comes down to visit. Until then I'm going to keep myself occupied with the upcoming finals, my friends, and the other boys around me (although most kinda suck in the dating area).

Boys

2008-11-06T20:35:00.000-08:00

As many girls, I just don't understand them. Well, I kind of do, but many times I wonder if they can be as stupid and confusing as I think they are. Then I am stupid enough to be surprised when they actually do something stupid! What is wrong with me!? This guy that I promised myself that I wouldn't talk to anymore a couple of days ago has come back again... This time I am on my guard though! I hate games and it looks like he might want to play a little. I might end up playing a little just to make him go a little crazy then vanish from his life to make him go nuts! I'm just afraid that if I do then I will end up liking him again, and I don't want to do that... It's not like he isn't a nice guy, he is! Well, to a point. He's a bit of an idiot (just like most guys, but to a little more extreme). I don't know, we'll see where this goes. Maybe I should just not talk to him at all. I just don't know, then again he may surprise me and become a better person! That could be just wishful thinking, but a girl has to dream a little or she'll wake up that all the prince charmings out there have turned gay and turn REALLY depressed.
Good news for me though! I've decided that I want to get married to one of my best guy friends when I am 29-32 if I am not married by then. I've told him that I want to get married in the temple (I'm LDS), so he has about six years to prepare himself for it if he is serious too. I think it would be great! If he was better in the church then I would consider on marrying him sooner, but I want presthood in my home so he needs to work on it. Then again, God could have someone else that he wants me to be with, so we've got about six years to meet. I want kids, so that's one of the reasons for the timeline. I would like to adopt, but I want some of my own as well.
Well, I would say that I'm going to go work on my senior thesis now, but that would probably end up being a lie. I'll either go to sleep or play WoW until I pass out. It's not like I have that much to do or that I can't write it, it's just that I'm so burnt out that I just don't want to!! I've got to get this done though. I need people to read it before I turn it in, so I'm hoping to get it done by Saturday night so I can send a mass email of my thesis to my friends and Professors to look over it and help me a little before Wednesday. Oh well, I do need to sleep more. Maybe I'll do that.

First Blog

2008-11-06T15:21:00.001-08:00

Hello! I'm new at this and doubt that anyone will read it or that I will continue it. I'm just trying thing out since I'm in class and give it a try. We'll see if I can get the hang of this and keep it up...